welcome to my head

So when I do the meditation, this is where I am.  This is a place about 15 mins from my house where I grew up swimming.  And it is even more amazing in person.  This is the exact spot I pretend I am on when I let my mind wander and escape from my cancer.  The rocks soak up the sun and heat me from the back while the sun heats me up on top!

 And these are some of my fam that came to enjoy the scenery on this freezing cold day. 

I still don't have any fluid build up that I can tell anyway.  I am dissapointed that I haven't been feeling very good in my tummy despite this.  I thought the cramping and discomfort all along was the fluid and now i'm still experiencing these symptoms so I'm not sure if it's the chemo or what, but I haven't felt great the past few days.  I also am not excited about the cold, I am thinking a winter Arizona trip will be in order at some point!