GPS yourself, this is what the book calls it. The book says, "Meet yourself where you are in this journey. The cancer trip is an up and down road--some days you're strong and ready, other days you're weak and want to give up. Find out where you are on any given day emotionally and go from there."
I think back on how sick I was when I started chemo again. I feel so much better now, and can't believe what I went through. If I knew the chemo was going to work and how much better I'd feel I wouldn't have been so torn about doing it, but alas, there is no crystal ball is there?
Well speaking of GPS, I am heading to Tucson next week on Saturday, for a week. I can NOT wait to soak up some sun. My mother in law is coming out to help with the kids and just my mom and I are going. Then I get to fly back with my brother! How lucky am I?? I feel like i'm finally getting over this awful cold and hope I can be in decent health to go for long walks in the sun and just be outside, maybe go find my rock to lay on in the desert!
I have chemo monday and I am NOT looking forward to it. I just feel so sick by the end of the treatment that I can't wait to just get home and go to bed. I keep making appointments to get drained and then cancel them because I just don't feel like there is enough there. I think there is a little bit but not enough to go through the awful procedure. The further I get away from it the more I don't ever want to do it again. It has been almost 6 weeks I think, and I am so grateful I don't have to go twice a week like I was doing, that was awful!
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