Humph

So I certainly felt better without the irinotican but not great.  After my pump came off I was nauseas for days after.  It wAsnt as bad of nausea but still it is awful bein even a little nauseas.  I am not as optimistic about continuing the treatment now.  I am seriously looking into alternative therapies.  I know that after this chemo stops working the only options are clinical trials and I am about done putting chemicals in my body!  I am praying hard on this decision as I have a scan Thursday and depending on the results the decision might be made for me.  I feel like I can't die without having tried everything I can get my hands on and why not start now.   We all know the chemo will never cure me it is just prolonging my life.  I need to find something that is a cure!